YES, I’m still alive…technically speaking. I pretty much lost the impetus to create after Mischa died and was immediately followed with a few personal setbacks. Follow that heartwarming goodness up with trying to finish a handful of pieces for my upcoming solo exhibit in November plus a two week bug complete with fever and a crippling migraine that was so excruciatingly painful that I had to go to the ER (that was a fun night). But what can I say. Life is a kick in the ovaries sometimes – such is life. Anyone who tells you otherwise is either selling something or isn’t paying much attention. I’m not trying to bitch or whine or make excuses for my absence. I just want you to know what’s been going on in my life, my head and my heart and let you know I haven’t disappeared. But I digress…
I’m still not sure I have the muses on my side. I keep trying to push through though, because to not create, to me, is to lie, to not be completely alive, to be half of a whole, to be only a small piece of myself. So I just keep trying to push through rather than giving up…which brings us to another piece by the badass Nattskiftet which is all about that very subject:
… NOT GIVING UP …
Thanks for bearing with me and for being a bunch of badasses. This has been one of the hardest, if not the hardest, times in my life (yes, harder than cancer, the night someone tried to murder me and my divorce and rest assured I am trying my hardest to regain my footing; to pull myself up by my bootstraps and a million other odd idioms about surviving that involve feet. I love your guts – each and every one of you. Thank you all for all your patience and your support as I wade through this emotional quagmire. Muwha!
Kisses & Chaos,
Alli Woods Frederick
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